Tuesday, November 16, 2010

The Civil Wars.

If I could sing half as well as Joy Willams, I'd be a very happy camper.

Monday, November 15, 2010

Happy happy happy.

Things that make me happy:

a. Getting all the classes I wanted for spring 2011. I mean, I don't WANT to take math at 8am, but it works well in my schedule and could be much worse. 

b. http://www.uncgspartans.com/sports/msoc/2010-11/releases/2010111461oegj 

c. Blowing bubbles in chocolate milk.

d. Writing my first draft at 2am, believing it is the worst thing I've ever written, and then in peer review being told that it's really good. 

e. "I played disc golf this weekend. For those of you who don't know what that is, it's basically like walking through the park with purpose," 

f. Paper writing/laundry/registration parties (even if they involve stress over classes, making a schedule for the guy who didn't make it already, having my pixie sized feet mocked, and all that jazz). 

g. Having 200 days until Thailand. Ah!  

Friday, November 5, 2010

The peace to thrive.

So that crappy week I was having? Some of it resolved. My keys turned up, I got to spend time at home with my family and my kittens, I had some really awesome worship time at my home church, I got a new glass container to heat my water in, and changed project groups in Religion.
However, things haven't really looked up. I'm going to be entirely honest and transparent with you right now, because this week has really opened my eyes to a lot of things I never noticed before and has brought about new challenges and hurdles. 

Ever since I've gotten to school and made friends and been so busy with them, I've really let my relationship with God fall behind on my priority list. There is no excuse for this. I know this is part of the reason that I am so easily irritated and frustrated by the things that have been going on lately. Little things happen and instead of running to my Father for comfort, I turn other places and look for answers myself. It's so easy to just say, "Oh, well, I'll read my Bible later. I need to work on this instead," or to put off spending time with Him during the day because I'd rather sit with my friends or get on Facebook. This is NOT okay, and I'm about to kick myself in the butt and take action. 
This week, I've also realized that I have a lot of things in my life that hold me back or warp my vision, and there were things I had never really considered a problem before or even realized where going on. Everything from world views to thought processes I've subconsciously had suddenly became really clear to me and I saw how much of a problem they were. I know that is vague, but it was almost overwhelming to realize this was happening. It's like all of the sudden my vision has been cleared and I see the world in a whole new light. 
Lastly, there has just been a lot of frustrating crap going on in our building. Between hitting brick walls every where I turn with my room situation and dealing with the fabulous maturity of college freshman (Are you familiar with the term grenade? If not, our trusty and always classy friend Urban Dictionary will tell you that it means "A group of ugly, fat, pale, repulsive, and/or slovenly females. The term "grenade" was coined by The Situation The Jersey Shore, on MTV's infamous show," Apparently my friends and I are now given this title. Lovely, right?) things have just been incredibly frustrating. 
So, it's time to refocus. It's time to put my focus back on God and getting back where I need to be with Him. Most days I completely forget about Thailand, which is not a good sign. It's time to get back with Him and back to where I was and beyond. I need to stop stressing over my schedule for next semester or what anyone thinks about me, because I have a wonderful, strong group of girls behind me that I am blessed enough to call my friends. 

It's time to really embrace the phase I'm in right now and start not only see the beautiful parts of life but searching for God's voice in my daily routine and seeking to be with Him more often, because in Him I find the peace I need to not only survive, but to thrive. 

Code Red Intake: 8
Days Until Thailand: 210